Sun

I sit on this hill top. Just killing time. Watching the sun set and the sun rise. The cold wind chills my face. The rain will come soon. Then the storm. The the clearing. Yet in the storm we face our fears. Every one has there own fears. The storm will pass. Then I will continue to watch the sun set and rise again.

peace

A soft goodbye. A simple note. Im what im. In scilence. In peace. In death. The only thing i lived by. "So others may live" and now I die. Peace at last. Free. Now dont cry for me. Be happy that im gone. You dont have to out up with this ass hole

The peace

Run free. Run far from this place. Fimd myself far fromt he world. With who I want to be with. I call her my angel. The peace in the cahous. The sanity to my insace mind. Yet in the newly found scilence of my mind I die. Yet what is the death inside my mind but what it always has ben. Rebirth. Rising from the ashes. A new person with new chalanges. With new hopes. With a new love. Yet somthings die with him. Somethings end. Some things change. Yet I continue to live. My angel makes sure of this for I dont want to hurt her. I just want to watch the sunset in a diffrent place and feal at home foronce. In the peace.

Cold hands

The cold hands. The cold bodies. The cold graves. The cold people. The cold souls. the numbness of death. The scilence. The fear. The way we live. The way we grown numb and cold. The ways we die. In scilence. waiting for the cold hands to take us to our cold grave.

home

When I stand alone I fall alone. When you stand together I fall and some one will catch me. For iam not alone but iam home.

ellos

I walk softly in the dark. For i have known no good nor evil. I have done manythings. Good and evil. Yet I still walk softly in this darkness. I walk in this darkness not alone.

pain from a freind

Pain. A complex subject for me to talk about. The pain that is always there, never ceasing, never ending. The pain we live with. Each day knowing it is the pain. The pains that lets us know we are still living. The pains that runs through every bone in my body. The pains that I wish would end. Sometimes I wonder if all I feel is pain. Yet strength is not hiding the pain. Covering it with a mask. It’s not showing your weakness. It’s not letting everyone know what your pain is. It’s living with the pain. Yet we all hid our pain and move on day to day. Sun rise to sunset. Sometimes the sun just sets and I feel no pain in the darkness. Then I ask myself. Is it over? In the darkness I feel nothing. Yet pain is. The best way to fix it. Well there isn’t a way to fix it, but there is a way to combat it. Find something to cover the pain and eventfully it will be eliminated.

The moon light

The moon light makes the waves glow as they clash on the rock along the shore. The clouds will soon cover the moon and it will be dark. The storm sould be coming this night. Sould I sit in the house and wait it out or watch the soft rain on the rocks by the shore? The storm will wash away the froot prints in the sand. The foot prints from the pathes will be turned to mud. Some bridges may be washed away. Yet in this storm there is peace. Just the rain drops in my head. Watching the waves beat the rocks. Just watching the storm pass by.

Notice

You can have it all. My empire of nothingness. Beet me down. Kill me in my sleep. Make me blead. Drowning in the fear. Of everything that is not here. It is ok. I was ment to die. Just dont cry when iam gone, and you dont notice it. For everything you have ben looking for was all I ever was. But you just let me go. Sliped back to what i used to be. The shadow of the night. Sliping back into the watery grave. Into the darkness of nothing. But cry for me.

Rain

Dark days Dark nights. It rains every day here. In the day in the night. The rain in the darkness. You can see it but you know its raining. The rains soaks everything. Yet one day it will stop raining. That will be the day.

the glass

Thr fracture splits me. Holding myselft together. Cooling so I dont explode. Holding myself together. Yet the fracute starts to split. The crack becomes more prominate. The glass brecks.

The dreams

Silent screams in my dreams. Try as I might nothing but the night. In the night nothing but fright. End comes and goes many a time. Runny in my mocs in this darkness. Silent I run from everything.Black and white. Dark and light. No color. Running and running. The black and white soon turns to color. But only one. Red.

bridges burning

bridges burning. All bridges end up burning. Some just to be burnt. Some get replaced. Some burn till nothing is left. Some burn just to be burnt. Some are burnt and then rebilt. Some just are burnt and never replaced. Some are burnt. Some river souldnt be crossed by a bridge. i never ment to burn the bridges that I have.

Head in the sand

Heads in the sand moving though this life. So ignorant. Not seeing the truth. Blinded by the light. Running with your heads in the sand. Its all about you and your ways. No one else in this world matter beacuse they are not like you. So you fear them only beacuse you know nothing about them. So ignorant. You fear them. Your angry at them. You try everything to keep them away. You try to punish them for what they are. Fear. You just fear me becuse I say what i want. You fear me beacuse Iam what I am. Nothing more nothing less. You have no clue what iam. I sugest you just back off. You have no clue what i can be. Fear what you dont know. The fear will keep you there with your head in the sand.

Complexity

I walked a line. This line of my life. At some point i crossed it. Everything gets worse with each sunset. wishing this line was back. Wishing I could have all that i have lost back. Wishing I was what i used to be. Just wishing everything could be so simple again. Yet with each sunset a peace of me dies. slowly wanting to. Yet each sunrise i wish to live to see the sunset again. The complexity of my life.

A candle

Night once again. A light in the distance. A candle flame. Dime yet bright in this darkness. Slowly fading. Do I blow it out and save it for later and leave myself in this darkness? The hero of the night a simple candle. Yet in the daylight its blown out. The hero of the night. Yet nothing by day. When will my candle go out and leave me in this darkness? Or will I save the candle to live anuther night?

The end is the biginging of the past

Years from my high school days. Thing have settled down and i have a house now. One day looking though the atic I found a chest coverd in dust. The odditys in this old house. The chest so coverd in dust. I gess its ben sitting there for many years. I dusted it of and to my surpirse it had a inscription in some language. idk. I tried to open with no luck. So I set it back on the spot where it sits. Many days have past and man nights. Yet one night i had a dreem of the chest and a man. He said Only I may open this chest. Though not me but a diffrent man. Many thoughts fade with time and he opend it. As i woke up i rushed up to that dusty chest. Said that line but nothing. The dreems progressed. Then a captain of a sailing ship was with the chest. He said
Only I many open this chest and only I. But as a diffrent man.Many thoughts fade with time and so do my bones. Then it opend. I rished back up to try this and it opend. In the chest lay a book. A leather bined book. I opened it and read the frount page. Tails from the lands as I seen them.

This story

Ok iam writing a story and for you that read my blog it will be up some time this week if iam not bissy...so yea

The road I walk

This road I walk. Always walking to the end. Then one day a man appeared on the road. Walking towards me. The man said just a simple line. We dont live our days on this earth. We just servive them day to day. The sunsets that end the days and the sunrise that ends the night. Whats end my life on this road? Im I to walk forever alone? When will it end? Or is it just the start of m life?
This long black path.

The darkness hides the truth.

Siding back into the darkness. being crush by what is me. Finding the water darker on the inside. Wanting to be the shadow once again. Wishing I was the night once again. Wishing the dammed that Am would raise the sky so I shall not be crushed no more. Wishing the end was. The light fades as my life pushes onward. The struggles make me darker and unknown each time. Each sunset makes me more in touch with what I was and what I will never be again. Stop looking up to me. For Aim not that person no longer. The darkness hides the truth about that AM. The darkness so found of me. The ways to die. The ways to live no longer apparent. The mirror lies. All I see is a shell. Grey and thin. The ways I see. The end will come. What happens in the end will make us what we are. For now the darkness hides the truth of what iam

Bullets fly in the dark

Bullets fly in the dark. Each night tracers are seen from side to side. Each day the bombs explode. A war. In a war you dont pick your side. You just end up where you do. The days end with the nights. The nights end will the sunrise. The sun some may never see. The war will burn our souls. Nothing but a shell. Well for some all we are is a shell so its not realy affrectin us. True soldiers. Rased from young. The war that burns. Everything you do to keep the sky from falling and crushing you. No matter what you do it always falls. What do you know about me? Who I was. No you know nothing. Iam the Soldier. Iam the beast that is unleased when the sky falls. Not to make things worse but to fix it. To bring the sky back to the heavans. The beast that ended the world come back in the end to save it. Irony of my life. Its ok you can hate me all you want. All that means is you know nothing of me. All you know is who I was. What i used to be. The changed that made me my own once again. The past is gone. The present is useless. But what lie beond that? The way Iam is me get over it. Iam alredy the hero that dies in the end. Nothing new to this story. Try me. Push me. Break me. Kill me. Just make sure i dont come back. The end will come and go. The question is who will be here when it dose? Who the man that distroyed himself, Or the monster that saved the man? The sun rises the day after the nights bleed. Will I see the sun rise yet again? Or will the sky fall and crush me in its darkness?

War

Lines have ben drawn. The side of the war are here. Pick your side for all in the middle shall be distroyed. The lines are here. The war will come. Whos side shall it be? The river shall run rich with blood

The path

Finding Who we are I walk this dark path. No sord. Ju st this small sheild. The worn finish of the sheild. Walking this dark path. Not knowing. Who we are is not what we are. The days I wander on this path. The things I see. The things I wish i could help or fix. The things my mind contorts. The things I wish where true., The things on this path that make my mind wander. The things we say. The things we do. All along this dark path. I wonder about this path and where it leads.

shall i see

To day is a day i live to see again. To day i do not die for it is not my time. I dont want to die. I dont want to see everythign i have dreamed. I do not want to see what is the truth. For today is not my time. Hopfuly tomaorw will come and go and i will see the sunrise one more time. For many years to come. For many sunrises and sunsets shall i see. For the life I live is what I live for.

Hold my hand

Hold my hand as i walk with you. Hold my hand as i giud you in this darkness that is life. Hold my hand as you see what I see. See the lgiht and the darkness as i do. Hold my hand as we alk this line. Hold my hand and it will a ll be fine. Hold my hand till we die. Hold my hand as we say goodbye. Hold my hand and you will be safe for I will protect you. For ever. I will be here as long as you keep hold. Donlt let me fade into the darkness as many befor me have done.

The cage

locked in this cage. The cage of my thouights. They scare me more than anything else. The wire casted in raw blood. The wires so crude. The way i live from day to day is hell being me. knowing i could be the killer. I could be the only left holding the knife. They days we live are only the dats we servive. The days we servive to die a diffrent day. The control that holds the cage to keep all the good in and the evil out. With out it your fucked. So be thankfull that I have a cage.

blood red winter

The screams of the victoms peace the empty souls. The rumble of the marching soldiers. The empire has emerged. Sleeping geiant has yet once awaked. The bodies staced in the streets and burning. The end has come. Fredom no longer exsists. The fight has become one. The death is eveinent. The end will come but for who,or what?

What We Remmber

I sayWe all bleed red. We know this yet some times we wonder if we still bleed red. We forget it. Yet what we dont forget is the scares. The scars that fad with time but the scares we always see. Stiched shut. Scares that make us wish we rememberd that we do bleed red. Scars.
Just scars.

I say we dont live each day we servive. Servive to die anuther day

The Night I lay Awake

The nights I lay awake are the worst. I lay and I think. Everything that could hapin. How stupid can we be? All the people all the problems. Everything thats not right. Sliping into the darkness yet wanting to go. What do we say as we say good bye? DO we say somthing that will be rememberd? Do we say the truth? Or do we just slip into the night? What do we do as every one dies? We see it yet we dotn act. Who are we as people? What do we do?

Just lay awake one night and think about that.

If only you could live

If only you could help me.
if only you couldnt see me.
If only you could let me be in darkness.

If only you couldnt see the darkness I see.
If i needed help I would scream.
If I wasnt alone I could see.

If only you could see my pain.
If only you could see how week Iam.
If only you could leave me in the darkness.

If only you could let me die.
Let me see the light i have ben craving.
Let the end be.

If only you could see how I do.
If you could.
Walk your own path for ours may cross.
Walk it alone or with some one.

It may be the same yet so far away they are.
The ways we lived and the ways we die.
Yet no one realy knows who we are.
For we are the ones that see nothing but darkness.

the red stage

The canvas of my skin. So sweet and perfact the carvings. The bright red ink. The words meaningless. The pain so great. What lies behind the curten? The question we ask. Always thinking about this crapy past. The scares we make will never heal. What lies behind the curten?
certen death.

In the End

In the End I see the darkness at the end of the light. The cave at the end of the light. The hold in the groud. Or the great ocean. Simple thoughts so great yet so sad. How we deal with what is the end. How do we deal with the death. The end that will always come. We dont. We run and hide. We wait hopeing its not today. Why wait? Why not live life wile you have it? Well who knows. I might just say goodbye, Or is it hello? In the End we all die

If

If you fall I will be there to catch you. If you jump I will be there to catch you. If you try to die I will be there to help you live. Ift you die I will cry for the moment of my life. I will be there for you always. If you jump I will jump after you. If you hang so shall the rest of us. None of us shall suffer for there will be no exicutioner. Swift death at the end. The word we say carry no meaning. But the action of life speeks for me.

what must

What must
We walk in the rain. The storm the brews. One by one my freinds fall into the mud. No one stops to help. How long must I walk in this rain. How long must the fight continue. Who will make it stop. The rain continues each day. By sunset it rains red. The ones that fell we say goodbye to. We continue with each day. Knowing this may be that rainy day that we say goodbye. The trust we have is diffrent. We walk in the rain for you shall not. We face the darkness beacuse you wont. We feal numb beacuse you will never. We are what you created. Wariors. What you fear. What you dont know about. What you wish you never were. Irony.

what?

Iam alone in a world so cold. Iam empty like my soul. This world so crule. The world that dosnt know who iam not. Just a shell of who I was. The world so cold. So empty. Alone we die as one.

we

What must
We walk in the rain. The storm the brews. One by oe my freinds fall into the mud. No one stops to help. How long must i walk in this rain. How long must the fight continue. Who will make it stop. The rain continues each day. By sunset it rains red. The ones that fell we say goodbye to. We continue with each day. Knowing this may be that rainy day that we say goodbye. The trust we have is diffrent. We walk int he rain for shall not. We face the darkness beacuse you wont. We feal numb beacuse you will never. We are.

scilent

Sometimes the hero must die. The words I say. The ends that tie me together. The Ways i live each day. The ways i want to die. The many that will remember. The days I die one by one they come. Will it be today who knows iam fealing sane. Scilent we lie in the grave we bilt

The music

I listin to the music you hate. It drowns out the screams. The music that fills the empty sould. The hard brutal truth. Emptyness. Filled with hate. Filled with death and distruction. The way of my life. Shit.

click

click. The sound of the worst things ever. The one time I decide to pull the trigger a dud. The day I want to end it all. Fucking shittyest thing to hapin to me ever. Yet is there somthing in my life worth saving. Or was it just dumb luck. the few that live fuck up the world. so why couldnt i die?

ha ha

I will Reply
Stand up the sargent shouts. "Hook up." Slowly suffle out that plane. Ha jumping outta a good airpane what a sane idea. I hope it works. jump. 4 secounds the pull that cord. What an idea. Hit the ground hard as fuck. hmm Still alive. Lost my rifle in the jump. Well there will be plenty on the ground. Running all the way to hell. And when i get there saiten will say What did you do for a living? I replied with a whole lotta anger. Made my living killin scums and commies for my nation. Then he looked at my sholder and sceen that big old egale. Then he just said. Ben waiting for some time what took you so long? Well I had to live for a wile...so wheres the keys to the mansion?

In the darkness

In the darkness
As I sit in the darkness I see what it was to be. It was the pain. The pain of my life. The pain. As the pain spreed it crushed hopes and dreams. Then the releaf came in the form of love, but wasnt enuff. tHe love brought only more pain. I decided to lock my heart away. The pain cesed. Maby some day one will find the key to my heart, and stop the pain. I walk in the darkness alone. One day i hope this darkness will become light. I dont think it will ever happin

I sit

I wish it would rain to wash the tears from my face. I stand here waiting for you but you will never see me I'm here when your world come crashing down yet you will never see me so cut my wrist slit my thought I'am jus one big joke to the world.......then maybe this pain will end along with all the other shit...then maybe you will see me, yet I will never see you again.
I stand in the rain letting my emotions get the best of me. The rain down my face hides my tears. The tears hide my pain. The pain I live with every day thinking of that one time, But I will still be me and you will still be you so just cut my wrists and slit my jugular. Watch the blood run out. End this pain I live with every day end the pain of you.
As the darkness starts to surround me the shadow of something. My mind starts to race. It's the reaper for my soul, but I have no soul. What have I done wrong?. It keeps getting closer. The slow steady pace. I can hear it now its crying? A flicker of light its her, but why? Why now? Then I realize……….she stops and below her feet my body drenched in blood. She says with a slow mumbled voice. "I always loved you I just never had the courage to tell you. Now I will never get to tell you. I just wish it would rain to hide these tears on my face."

Days We Live

candles
As I sit in the darkness of winter
I sit in the dark with only a candle but no flame
Then I see through the darkness a light
Its a single candle
It keeps geting closer
Then I see a person
Its a frind
She gets closer
She blows out the candle
Here I'm siting in the darkness sad and loanly
Like I always have ben.

For you

My smile I have come to love well its fake. This smile hides so much. Things you will never see. I smile just to let you know every things just ok, but i know its not. You just keep waking by. If you ever did get close anuff to see the real me ide just move away like ive been so good at. This smile hides the real me the me you will never see. Well thats just ok. This smile ive come to love hides the real me. The other me the me that you see well thats just fake too. This smile hide me and just me

days we die

Blood runs rich from the war you started. You tried to scilence it. You killed e very one that knew. You tryed to hide it. You failed to kill me. The man hunt is on. I will come for you one of thes days. Watch your back. Sleep softly. The war you have started will be paid for in you blood. The end will come for you. I will make sure of it. For all the people you killed that didnt need to die. You will pay. Sleep softly tonight for Iam watching you.