The nights I lay awake are the worst. I lay and I think. Everything that could hapin. How stupid can we be? All the people all the problems. Everything thats not right. Sliping into the darkness yet wanting to go. What do we say as we say good bye? DO we say somthing that will be rememberd? Do we say the truth? Or do we just slip into the night? What do we do as every one dies? We see it yet we dotn act. Who are we as people? What do we do?
Just lay awake one night and think about that.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
If only you could live
If only you could help me.
if only you couldnt see me.
If only you could let me be in darkness.
If only you couldnt see the darkness I see.
If i needed help I would scream.
If I wasnt alone I could see.
If only you could see my pain.
If only you could see how week Iam.
If only you could leave me in the darkness.
If only you could let me die.
Let me see the light i have ben craving.
Let the end be.
If only you could see how I do.
If you could.
Walk your own path for ours may cross.
Walk it alone or with some one.
It may be the same yet so far away they are.
The ways we lived and the ways we die.
Yet no one realy knows who we are.
For we are the ones that see nothing but darkness.
if only you couldnt see me.
If only you could let me be in darkness.
If only you couldnt see the darkness I see.
If i needed help I would scream.
If I wasnt alone I could see.
If only you could see my pain.
If only you could see how week Iam.
If only you could leave me in the darkness.
If only you could let me die.
Let me see the light i have ben craving.
Let the end be.
If only you could see how I do.
If you could.
Walk your own path for ours may cross.
Walk it alone or with some one.
It may be the same yet so far away they are.
The ways we lived and the ways we die.
Yet no one realy knows who we are.
For we are the ones that see nothing but darkness.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
the red stage
The canvas of my skin. So sweet and perfact the carvings. The bright red ink. The words meaningless. The pain so great. What lies behind the curten? The question we ask. Always thinking about this crapy past. The scares we make will never heal. What lies behind the curten?
certen death.
certen death.
Friday, September 26, 2008
In the End
In the End I see the darkness at the end of the light. The cave at the end of the light. The hold in the groud. Or the great ocean. Simple thoughts so great yet so sad. How we deal with what is the end. How do we deal with the death. The end that will always come. We dont. We run and hide. We wait hopeing its not today. Why wait? Why not live life wile you have it? Well who knows. I might just say goodbye, Or is it hello? In the End we all die
Thursday, September 25, 2008
If
If you fall I will be there to catch you. If you jump I will be there to catch you. If you try to die I will be there to help you live. Ift you die I will cry for the moment of my life. I will be there for you always. If you jump I will jump after you. If you hang so shall the rest of us. None of us shall suffer for there will be no exicutioner. Swift death at the end. The word we say carry no meaning. But the action of life speeks for me.
what must
What must
We walk in the rain. The storm the brews. One by one my freinds fall into the mud. No one stops to help. How long must I walk in this rain. How long must the fight continue. Who will make it stop. The rain continues each day. By sunset it rains red. The ones that fell we say goodbye to. We continue with each day. Knowing this may be that rainy day that we say goodbye. The trust we have is diffrent. We walk in the rain for you shall not. We face the darkness beacuse you wont. We feal numb beacuse you will never. We are what you created. Wariors. What you fear. What you dont know about. What you wish you never were. Irony.
We walk in the rain. The storm the brews. One by one my freinds fall into the mud. No one stops to help. How long must I walk in this rain. How long must the fight continue. Who will make it stop. The rain continues each day. By sunset it rains red. The ones that fell we say goodbye to. We continue with each day. Knowing this may be that rainy day that we say goodbye. The trust we have is diffrent. We walk in the rain for you shall not. We face the darkness beacuse you wont. We feal numb beacuse you will never. We are what you created. Wariors. What you fear. What you dont know about. What you wish you never were. Irony.
Friday, September 19, 2008
what?
Iam alone in a world so cold. Iam empty like my soul. This world so crule. The world that dosnt know who iam not. Just a shell of who I was. The world so cold. So empty. Alone we die as one.
we
What must
We walk in the rain. The storm the brews. One by oe my freinds fall into the mud. No one stops to help. How long must i walk in this rain. How long must the fight continue. Who will make it stop. The rain continues each day. By sunset it rains red. The ones that fell we say goodbye to. We continue with each day. Knowing this may be that rainy day that we say goodbye. The trust we have is diffrent. We walk int he rain for shall not. We face the darkness beacuse you wont. We feal numb beacuse you will never. We are.
We walk in the rain. The storm the brews. One by oe my freinds fall into the mud. No one stops to help. How long must i walk in this rain. How long must the fight continue. Who will make it stop. The rain continues each day. By sunset it rains red. The ones that fell we say goodbye to. We continue with each day. Knowing this may be that rainy day that we say goodbye. The trust we have is diffrent. We walk int he rain for shall not. We face the darkness beacuse you wont. We feal numb beacuse you will never. We are.
scilent
Sometimes the hero must die. The words I say. The ends that tie me together. The Ways i live each day. The ways i want to die. The many that will remember. The days I die one by one they come. Will it be today who knows iam fealing sane. Scilent we lie in the grave we bilt
The music
I listin to the music you hate. It drowns out the screams. The music that fills the empty sould. The hard brutal truth. Emptyness. Filled with hate. Filled with death and distruction. The way of my life. Shit.
click
click. The sound of the worst things ever. The one time I decide to pull the trigger a dud. The day I want to end it all. Fucking shittyest thing to hapin to me ever. Yet is there somthing in my life worth saving. Or was it just dumb luck. the few that live fuck up the world. so why couldnt i die?
ha ha
I will Reply
Stand up the sargent shouts. "Hook up." Slowly suffle out that plane. Ha jumping outta a good airpane what a sane idea. I hope it works. jump. 4 secounds the pull that cord. What an idea. Hit the ground hard as fuck. hmm Still alive. Lost my rifle in the jump. Well there will be plenty on the ground. Running all the way to hell. And when i get there saiten will say What did you do for a living? I replied with a whole lotta anger. Made my living killin scums and commies for my nation. Then he looked at my sholder and sceen that big old egale. Then he just said. Ben waiting for some time what took you so long? Well I had to live for a wile...so wheres the keys to the mansion?
Stand up the sargent shouts. "Hook up." Slowly suffle out that plane. Ha jumping outta a good airpane what a sane idea. I hope it works. jump. 4 secounds the pull that cord. What an idea. Hit the ground hard as fuck. hmm Still alive. Lost my rifle in the jump. Well there will be plenty on the ground. Running all the way to hell. And when i get there saiten will say What did you do for a living? I replied with a whole lotta anger. Made my living killin scums and commies for my nation. Then he looked at my sholder and sceen that big old egale. Then he just said. Ben waiting for some time what took you so long? Well I had to live for a wile...so wheres the keys to the mansion?
In the darkness
In the darkness
As I sit in the darkness I see what it was to be. It was the pain. The pain of my life. The pain. As the pain spreed it crushed hopes and dreams. Then the releaf came in the form of love, but wasnt enuff. tHe love brought only more pain. I decided to lock my heart away. The pain cesed. Maby some day one will find the key to my heart, and stop the pain. I walk in the darkness alone. One day i hope this darkness will become light. I dont think it will ever happin
As I sit in the darkness I see what it was to be. It was the pain. The pain of my life. The pain. As the pain spreed it crushed hopes and dreams. Then the releaf came in the form of love, but wasnt enuff. tHe love brought only more pain. I decided to lock my heart away. The pain cesed. Maby some day one will find the key to my heart, and stop the pain. I walk in the darkness alone. One day i hope this darkness will become light. I dont think it will ever happin
I sit
I wish it would rain to wash the tears from my face. I stand here waiting for you but you will never see me I'm here when your world come crashing down yet you will never see me so cut my wrist slit my thought I'am jus one big joke to the world.......then maybe this pain will end along with all the other shit...then maybe you will see me, yet I will never see you again.
I stand in the rain letting my emotions get the best of me. The rain down my face hides my tears. The tears hide my pain. The pain I live with every day thinking of that one time, But I will still be me and you will still be you so just cut my wrists and slit my jugular. Watch the blood run out. End this pain I live with every day end the pain of you.
As the darkness starts to surround me the shadow of something. My mind starts to race. It's the reaper for my soul, but I have no soul. What have I done wrong?. It keeps getting closer. The slow steady pace. I can hear it now its crying? A flicker of light its her, but why? Why now? Then I realize……….she stops and below her feet my body drenched in blood. She says with a slow mumbled voice. "I always loved you I just never had the courage to tell you. Now I will never get to tell you. I just wish it would rain to hide these tears on my face."
I stand in the rain letting my emotions get the best of me. The rain down my face hides my tears. The tears hide my pain. The pain I live with every day thinking of that one time, But I will still be me and you will still be you so just cut my wrists and slit my jugular. Watch the blood run out. End this pain I live with every day end the pain of you.
As the darkness starts to surround me the shadow of something. My mind starts to race. It's the reaper for my soul, but I have no soul. What have I done wrong?. It keeps getting closer. The slow steady pace. I can hear it now its crying? A flicker of light its her, but why? Why now? Then I realize……….she stops and below her feet my body drenched in blood. She says with a slow mumbled voice. "I always loved you I just never had the courage to tell you. Now I will never get to tell you. I just wish it would rain to hide these tears on my face."
Days We Live
candles
As I sit in the darkness of winter
I sit in the dark with only a candle but no flame
Then I see through the darkness a light
Its a single candle
It keeps geting closer
Then I see a person
Its a frind
She gets closer
She blows out the candle
Here I'm siting in the darkness sad and loanly
Like I always have ben.
As I sit in the darkness of winter
I sit in the dark with only a candle but no flame
Then I see through the darkness a light
Its a single candle
It keeps geting closer
Then I see a person
Its a frind
She gets closer
She blows out the candle
Here I'm siting in the darkness sad and loanly
Like I always have ben.
For you
My smile I have come to love well its fake. This smile hides so much. Things you will never see. I smile just to let you know every things just ok, but i know its not. You just keep waking by. If you ever did get close anuff to see the real me ide just move away like ive been so good at. This smile hides the real me the me you will never see. Well thats just ok. This smile ive come to love hides the real me. The other me the me that you see well thats just fake too. This smile hide me and just me
days we die
Blood runs rich from the war you started. You tried to scilence it. You killed e very one that knew. You tryed to hide it. You failed to kill me. The man hunt is on. I will come for you one of thes days. Watch your back. Sleep softly. The war you have started will be paid for in you blood. The end will come for you. I will make sure of it. For all the people you killed that didnt need to die. You will pay. Sleep softly tonight for Iam watching you.
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